IF ONLY…THE COMPLEXITY

So I’m yet to announce my official return, I’m just hear in and out unofficially I would say. Never the less, a very close friend of mine came over today and one of the things we eventually talked about was the MARRIAGE-PRESSURIZING SYSTEM in the AFRICAN SOCIETY, I would say most especially Nigeria because that is were I’m based, so that is where the inspiration of this poem was drawn from. I really hope you can break through the play of words and use of English on this one. ENJOY!!!

IF ONLY…THE COMPLEXITY

I think and feel maybe i probably know it’s complex. Complex than what I imagined…Complex than I ever expected and more complex than I’ve dreamt of feeling but I wondered if my judgements were true..I pondered upon desired expectations but to agree on a definite solution my soul was still searching…I was willing to hold out…unreluctant to give…extremely patient… I was quite taken aback so I had to pause to look back at the sanity of my last word…only then did I realize that i was unsure of my patience. Looking the other way and trying to follow the example of my predecessor…I doubted the capacity of my strenght…if I could bear it all…so much unlove still in love….but yet survival was necessary.. the clock never stopped ticking and life most definitely had to continue…the realization of days…turning into weeks..weeks into months and months into years…a decade…what next…some days pain…other days joy …probable peace òf mind in its variation…happiness somewhat discounted…and tears…I knew not what to qualify it…what exactly was the in-depth general purpose of life…I felt I was being trained for àll òf it from the very beginning and yes I wasn’t on the battle field yet but it seemed like the battle field wasn’t really a look alike of my lesson note…of course i was trying to make my comparisons but truly to everyone…the experiencing of different dimensions…with everything…my resolve was trying to be better ..trying to work on the internal though not forsaking the external…dealing with my issues and going into warfare with my challenges..but my singular earnest prayer and my utmost desire was to look at my extra and smile till eternity and that I was going to add as the biggest feather in my hat…cleaning and polishing it everyday…until then my lesson continues .